Rawlins Family

Rawlins Family

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Deep thoughts for the day:
I need to stop comparing. All too often I get focused on what other people are doing, what they have and what they look like. I get a little down and think that the grass must truly be greener in someone else's yard (okay, that part is real, though, because I don't have a whole lot of grass in my yard, mostly weeds that we mow...but I digress). I see people and think my life might just be better/easier if I could be as skinny as them, or as fashionable, or as creative, or as good at baking/canning/gardening. Wouldn't it be great if I knew how to decorate a house like that, or if my house were newer and fancier, not to mention cleaner? Wouldn't it be great if I could take lots of trips and see more of the world. Maybe I should read more. Maybe I should read less. Maybe I should try pilates. Maybe I should only eat bacon and eggs. Maybe what's working for them would be the magic cure for my life!!!!
Or maybe I need to just stop looking at others and look around me right now! The adorable little girl cooing at me right now; the sweet, sensitive Spider-dude watching 101 Dalmatians; the crazy, but oh-so-lovable 2 year who is passed out in his bed; the hard-working, generous and kind husband who makes every day better than the last. I have a roof over my head, good health and enough money that we can take care of ourselves and try to help others. I have a body that is strong enough to create, carry and deliver three little miracles (and hopefully, someday in the DISTANT future, more miracle(s)). I have a knowledge of the gospel that gives me hope, direction and complete joy. Really, when it comes to the important stuff, the things that matter most, my cup is so full and I'm so thankful for that.
I know that the Jones' are hard to keep up with. I know that I will always have to battle that urge to compare myself with everyone else. But for today I'm glad to feel like I'm winning.

8 comments:

Sara said...

Thanks for the reminder... :)

Jeni said...

every day I look outside and think "their grass is sooo greeen, I hate our weeds, although those are green, maybe we should keep those around"
BUt really who doesn't feel this way? I do - you are the pro cook and mother and you are the skinny gorl next door who always looks cute... so Mrs. JOnes, let me catch up cause it is YOU that make it hard! haha I love you ANNA, you are great! the only downfall??? Beat pancakes - need I say more?

Anna@Exasperation said...

Yeah, Jen. Beet pancakes. Deceptively UnDelicious!

Alyssa said...

love you, Anna:)

Christy said...

WOW!!!! Anna, you have stolen the words out of my mind and mouth. I too feel the same way. I have often APOLOGIZING to Scott for not being a "Martha-type" wife. I can't bake, cook, clean or look the part. (true story, we've had this discussion all too many times)

You have a beautiful family and a life full of love. What more can a girl ask for? Sometimes it's just nice to know that your neighbor thinks your grass is greener right?


((HUGS))

Stephanie said...

It's funny you write this b/c I was just thinking about you today and all the wonderful things you do. You're awesome!

Chrystapooh said...

If it makes you feel any better, I don't have grass, either. I have red Georgia clay in my backyard, which, unless I manage to catch him, strip him and wash him every time he walks in the house from playing outside, Hudson spreads all over the INSIDE of the house, to include lovely orange footprints on my white coverlet from where he jumped on the bed. I guess I do have sod in the front yard, but I'm not about to send Hudson out there to play, now am I??? Curb appeal is over-rated. Backyard sod is where it's at. (Nice, GREEN backyard sod ;P )

JoDell said...

I needed to read that! I too often feel the same way. Thanks for the reminder to be grateful :)